Tough times

Good evening
Some days are better, some worse. This one is not a better one. The grief group was helpful tonight and the news that Marilyn will arrive at 11:30 tomorrow evening is just plain wonderful. I don't expect that Marilyn being here is going to fix all the problems but it will be nice to have someone to talk things through with. Marilyn is an excellent listener and very wise at responding. She has been a friend since our Sacramento days when we were first out of Seminary, assigned to the Central SDA Church and Nikki was about to be born. So I guess that makes it about 34 years. That is a long time to know someone. She and Nan were always able to have fun, to get things done and each admired the other. Nan was so thrilled to rediscover Marilyn in Rhode Island and enjoyed every visit we had first with Marilyn and Walt and then with Marilyn after she lost Walt to a heart attack and cancer.
The high points of this day include: getting a first estimate on 2007 taxes at a shocking $11,000 owed, going yet another day without an order, battling through a very difficult Oakland three unit report, feeling really rough most of the day with pressure in my chest, getting to town for the x ray only to realize that I left the doctors orders on my desk somewhere, it just went like that all day, working out an agreement with Citi bank over a credit card which will take $450 out of my checking account every month for a year, in exchange they will freeze all interest which was piling up at a rate soon to be 28.8 %.
So I just slugged my way through the day, napping in the chair, checking my blood sugar and finding it 227 when it should not be over 120.
One of the sales that I worked on and have been back twice to do follow up inspections was 2 days from closing. This morning the title company that has the deposit and all the paperwork closed its doors for good locking everything inside to complete the purchase. For the buyers its a disaster. Those of us effected, lender, agents now must wait until a new title company can fire up loan documents, title search etc before we get paid. Its a hard hit on the agents, one of which has not had a closing this year.
At this point I think I have all the automatics and checks written, everything covered at this moment but one never knows and right now the QuickBooks Pro account is frozen since Ken my accountant has the active file at his office and I can make no changes until the disk is returned. So tomorrow I will be digging to find more deductions, more proof of medical bills paid, business expenses, anything to help Ken bring the total down.
So enough gloom. I'm looking forward to sleep, I can last until about 6 when back pain drives me out of bed for the day. And the weight guy comes tomorrow, this time after all the car expenses I really have no money to hire him.
I would appreciate your prayers and positive thoughts and I'm so thankful Marilyn is coming.

love to all,

tim